Let me preface this post with an apology. The content of this post may not be centered on a particular topic, and it may not even "stay the course" with regard to subject matter. For that, I am sorry.
You know a band I've never seen live? The Decemberists. Why hasn't this been an option?
So, I've been doing some math lately. Some cost of living expenses, if you will. Should I move? If so, where? Find a home to rent in Greensburg. Get a place in Indy. Can I afford to buy? Do I want to buy? If I did live in Indy, could I afford to drive to Greensburg everyday to go to work? I suppose, technically speaking, the answer to all of these question is ultimately yes. Does this mean that any of these options would be a wise decision? I don't know. This really doesn't help at all.
Somehow, tonight, this all led me to the following question: What's the true cost of living? Sure, it's a cheesy question. I'm not even entirely sure what it is asking. I don't think it has anything to do with money, that's for sure. Can I even comprehend such a question? I guess in a way, I'm asking, how does one put a price on happiness? Have you ever thought about what truly makes you happy? I don't think I have. Is this weird? How have I lived this long of my life without considering this basic question? Why am I an engineer? Why do I live in Greensburg? Honestly, I don't have an answer, and I'm not sure I'm OK with this anymore. Is what I'm doing now what I want to be doing for the rest of my life?
OK, so admittedly, some of this might have to do with the numerous beers I've ingested this evening. But these things have been boiling under the surface for a while now. A group of us went out for drinks after work today to celebrate the departure of one of our own. Even though it was a sad occasion, we had a great time. Matt is off to St. Louis. And why not, he's got friends there. And, as he put's it, "I'm young, and I'm single, so why not?"
It was great talking to the guys (and girls) that I haven't seen as much of lately. It was easy to get back into the swing of things. Of course, these relationships were built from the five, almost six, years I worked with these people.
Alright. Just as I feared. This post is a complete mess. This post is long. This post should not have been posted. But I took the time to write it, so why not?
Why not?